The past few days my head was spinning. I have had people share with me stories of others who have cured their cancer with food to stories of others who tried to do an all natural approach who passed away.
As my radiation and chemo treatments stand around the corner, doubt was a weed that began to grow in my mind. I had been confident with my choices but when all these stories began flooding my way - and I enhanced their potency by using something called Google - I started questioning the choices that I had already prayerfully made.
As my mind began to spin, with doubt seeping in, I began to question my path to healing. The yogi in me knows there is truth in healing power in foods and the Christian in me also knows that God gifted people in the medical field with knowledge and wisdom to help others.
From day one I have been focused on healing, nutrient dense foods, yet with the knowledge that they didn't get clear margins in one area, and that there are cancer cells traveling nerves, I know that the Western treatments suggested can help too. But maybe, just maybe, I should not do the treatment and just try healing with just foods...No! you will look back and regret not doing the treatment if the cancer spreads. True..but... and around and around and around and around I had been spinning ...
When I realized I was listening to people rather than taking time to listen to God. I finally stopped talking about it (and googling) and took time to...
Pause. Breathe. Pray.
I took time to sit with God and asked, "What is the wisest choice for me?"
I sat some more.
I sat some more...........
"Build a bridge."
Build a bridge? Okay. I will build a bridge.
I will integrate wisdom from both sides for my treatment and hopefully raise awareness that there needs to be a bigger, wider bridge built between these two approaches.
You see, there is a disconnect between Western medicine and an integrative approach to healing. Some steps have been taken but I still see a huge gap and it really saddens me. For example, from day one post surgery, I was offered a sugary protein drink and pudding. I declined and asked my sisters to go to Whole Foods and get me bone broth and unsweetened apple sauce. Another example is when I was losing a bunch of weight post surgery I was told to have milkshakes and ice cream - to get more calories in.
When I know I have cancer still in me, why would I choose to put processed sugar - of any quantity but especially that amount - into my body and feed the cancer? (yes, cancer feeds on sugar) I want to starve these cells! Why not fuel up on foods that are known to fight cancer? (such as tumeric with pepper, garlic, green leafy veggies, sprouts, green tea, celery, carrots and SO many more)
In the same breath these same doctors are able to send radiation up those nerves that are carrying the cancer and chemo increases the radiations potency. So why wouldn't I try doing that too in the fight?
Their is wisdom on both sides and I am building a bridge between them for my treatment plan. The wisest choice for me is to fuel my body, from the inside out, and also following my radiation and chemo schedule. This may not be for everyone but for me, being able to look at my kids in the eyes and say, I did all that I could to fight this brings me peace. I will look back with no what ifs, no regrets.
I am doing what is mine to do and trusting God with the rest.
If you too are spinning around, unsure of what the wisest choice is for you, I invite you to stop spinning (talking about it and googling) and take a moment to...
Pause. Breathe. Pray.
Invite God into the equation. And wait. Wait patiently. And trust where He leads you.