This morning I was sitting here praying for a wife who unexpectedly lost her husband this week. I was praying for their grown children and grandchildren who loss their father and grandfather. I prayed for this gentleman's family, friends, co-workers, and the children he served throughout the years as their bus driver. This Navy veteran lost his life by an random act of nature and it doesn't make sense. I didn't know him but my heart broke for his family so I sat and I prayed.
And all that keeps popping into my head is...
Life is precious.
People are precious.
The loss of this gentleman this week reminded me that I need to live today as though there is no tomorrow. I don't say that meaning that I will go out and be irresponsible which is what some may give themselves permission to do. What I mean by that is that I need to love those around me today as though tomorrow is not a given. We may have grown accustom to thinking that tomorrow is there to make up for what we didn't do today. A verse that really transformed my heart is...
"Teach me to number my days so I may gain a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:12
My days are numbered yet I don't know the number. Neither do you.
I remember how discombobulated I was those first few days after I was diagnosed because I was unknowingly convinced myself that I had more control in my life that I really do. With the loss of this gentleman in our community this week, I am once again reminded of the lack of control we have in our lives. Yet I refuse to let fear be the outcome of my lack of control. What I choose to move towards is to love.
I don't know the number of my days but what will I choose to do with the days I have?
I choose to love.
Love my husband.
Love my children.
Love my parents, my siblings, my in-laws, my nieces and nephews.
Love my friends.
Love my neighbors - the teachers, the mailmen, the bus drivers, the cashiers, the custodians, the elderly, the strangers - and seek ways to infuse love into our community.
I invite us all to take a moment to...
Pause. Breathe. Pray.
Take a moment to absorb that life is precious.
Take another moment to absorb that each person we pass each day is precious (maybe not to you in particular but to someone).
I offer for you to join me and choose to use the time we have to live out love, moment-by-moment, day-by-day. I know from experience how transformative of a practice this is - when it is practiced.
And although nothing makes sense as to why this gentleman lost his life, let's do an act of love in honor of his life, and his family.
With love and hope,