Two days ago we had to say goodbye to our sweet 12 year old dog, Peyton. It was possibly the saddest thing I have ever had to do (which explains the cushioned life I have had). My family and friends were sending me texts, calling, wanting to check in and love on me but I ignored the texts, the calls as my phone buzzed beside me throughout the day.
I just needed time alone with my husband and children to process it.
But then yesterday morning there was a pull on my heart to connect with others. I didn't want to, I am sad and can cry at the drop of a hat, why would I invite someone into that mess???
Then it hit me...
I need to invite people's love in to help me heal. When I am low my tendency is to come inward and block everyone out, including those who love me most. I just want to feel like crap and stay in the pit (This was my tendency with anxiety and depression most of my life)...and maybe there is pride involved too, not wanting to have people see me undone.
It wasn't until I started inviting people into my struggles with anxiety and depression and accept their love did I truly start to heal and I know the same is true today experiencing this loss. I need to invite love in...
I share this today because I know I am not the only one who is sad and/or struggling. I know someone reading this may be also dealing with loss or maybe it's anxiety or depression. Maybe someone is struggling in their marriage or is trying to not take another drink or financially are so in debt they think there is no way out...
Whatever your struggle is today I invite you to come beside me to...
Pause. Breathe. Pray.
May we have the wisdom to know who to invite beside us, people who will love on us and help us diffuse the fire and take a step towards healing. May we have the courage to invite their love in to shine light into our darkness and infuse hope into our hearts that healing will come, in time.
We weren't meant to stand alone in life. We were made to stand beside one another to help build each other up. I needed this reminder today and am sharing in case you needed it too. As uncomfortable as it may be, I pray we both invite people's love in as a step towards healing.
PS It is humbling to write this post about the loss of my dog when I know there are so many other worse things going on in the world...but I surrendered to share in hopes it can shine light in someone else's sadness/struggle.