This sign hangs in our playroom. It is a great life skill for my kids to learn but I am also still learning to put this truth into practice.
Last night I conquered a fear. I am curious what your first thoughts are but am pretty sure you haven't guessed what I did…
I ate dinner in a restaurant!
I know it may not sound like much but I have a history of panic attacks in restaurants. It's a long story but the short of it is, dimly lit restaurants and the smell of chicken used to be triggers for me that would spiral me right into a panic attack. (I can laugh about this now but it wasn't so funny for many years).
We were invited to go to celebrate a friends birthday at a restaurant last night. I haven't had a panic attack in a restaurant in years but we haven't been to this particular restaurant in seven or eight years.
Because the last time we were there I had a full blown panic attack and we had to leave the restaurant. I was hesitant to say yes to our friends because the fear of having a panic attack again frightened me.
I paused. Breathed. Prayed.
With the foundation of my faith beneath me, I knew I could do it.
We went. I turned to my husband while we were there and asked if he remembered what happened last time we were there. He smiled and said, "Yes, that's why I didn't order chicken."
We sat together and I meditated on these words throughout the night.
There were no heat waves rushing through me, no heart flutterings, or upset stomach. I was able to be present, laugh with my husband and friends and have an incredible time!
I am so grateful for words of wisdom such as these for me to lean on in life. It isn't just about knowing these words but putting them into practice. With the foundation of faith beneath me, I was able to conquer my irrational fears and have a lovely night!
Thought I would share to encourage others who have irrational fears as I do to:
Let your faith be bigger than your fear!