Last Thursday I had my thyroid biopsy.
Last night as I was anticipating getting the results I wrote this...
This picture is what I want to feel but to be real with you, it's not what I am feeling in this moment.
I am sitting in bed wanting to sleep but tomorrow I find out the results from my thyroid biopsy. When I found out I had cancer in January, it was a complete surprise. Now I've been waiting a week for the results. I've been able to distract myself for the most part but tonight I am sitting in the reality of the unknown and it's tough.
I know no matter the outcome God is with me and I'll get through it...but I really don't want to go through it again. I am trying not to fast forward and remain present in the moment...I just need to know the results. I could ask Google 1,000 questions tonight about thyroid nodules, calcifications and cancer but that still won't give me the results I will hear tomorrow.
I hope when I hear the results tomorrow I get to stand like this willow tree angel of courage, take a deep breath and truly move forward closing this chapter in my life. But if not, I hope to stand courageously, staring cancer down ~again~ and not allowing it to stop me from doing what is mine to do. I have too much life to live and love to give...
I SO hope it's benign🙏 I just need to wait and see what the morning brings...
This morning I heard the biopsy is benign!!!! Woohooo🎉🎊🎈Tears of relief and gratitude have been flowing. I feel like I can now officially close this chapter and move on. The ideas I've had but have been hesitant to put into action because of the unknown I look forward to now doing!
I feel free like this willow tree, ready to live life freely, boldly, courageously with the strength of God as my foundation. And part of that is my renewed purpose in life to come beside those who are at the start of their journey or are in the middle of it, to let them know they are never alone.
If you or a loved one needs encouragement during this time, I'd be honored to walk beside you. Please send me a note so I can reach out to you. And remember...
Hold onto hope. It anchors the soul⚓️🙏💕
With gratitude and hope,